Expecting and Expectation
Yes... it is this time of my life that I never thought will come... not this soon anyway..
The thought of being a parent to someone else has always been something quite scarry to me. Yes, the whole natural vs cesarean birth option, feeling the least beautiful and attractive (to some of you this may not apply.. hahaha.. lucky you!!), and those other pregnancy stuff... is not really the thing you worry the most as your pregnancy grows older.
I mean, being 7.5 mths pregnant, you don't think of those things much anymore. For me, my line of thoughts is more about how to raise the baby well, will I be a good mother, what if I can't bond with my baby, I certainly don't want my baby to be like THAT baby, etc. All these thoughts just haunts me sometimes. Yeah people always say... it'll come naturally as a woman... you'll know what to do when the time comes.... reEeallLLllyyy??!!
Maybe I'm just a worrier... Sometimes my mind just wonders about 5-10 yrs into the future where I imagine what my children will be and how naughty or how nice and good boys and girls they are.... Then it wonders back into the present where all of the concepts and principles of how to raise good children started to fill my head... (I know.. i know.. maybe I'm just being too paranoid...) Despite all these worries I have in my head, Jesus reminded me that there are fam and friends whom He has placed all around me, to help me out and to learn from... I feel truly blessed in soooo many ways! I have family and friends who are always there to give me advices and supports, even suggest a few names.. (which I'm dreaaddddiinnggg to hear...). Truly, I've got a bunch of caring friends and fam all around us who are just excited as we are about this baby.
We get to move to my brother's house which is only 2 doors down from my mum in-law's house! Whom by the way.. is an excellent cook!! And my mum is coming down from Jkt to stay here for a month to help out. I have aunts and uncles and experienced mums all around me to help me out should I feel stuck. I am truly blessed!
So maybe I should just stop worrying and really enjoy the moment... After all, there's nothing gained out of worrying. I guess I will know when the time comes... but for now... Oooohhh!!! She's moving about!! Tickles!
The thought of being a parent to someone else has always been something quite scarry to me. Yes, the whole natural vs cesarean birth option, feeling the least beautiful and attractive (to some of you this may not apply.. hahaha.. lucky you!!), and those other pregnancy stuff... is not really the thing you worry the most as your pregnancy grows older.
I mean, being 7.5 mths pregnant, you don't think of those things much anymore. For me, my line of thoughts is more about how to raise the baby well, will I be a good mother, what if I can't bond with my baby, I certainly don't want my baby to be like THAT baby, etc. All these thoughts just haunts me sometimes. Yeah people always say... it'll come naturally as a woman... you'll know what to do when the time comes.... reEeallLLllyyy??!!
Maybe I'm just a worrier... Sometimes my mind just wonders about 5-10 yrs into the future where I imagine what my children will be and how naughty or how nice and good boys and girls they are.... Then it wonders back into the present where all of the concepts and principles of how to raise good children started to fill my head... (I know.. i know.. maybe I'm just being too paranoid...) Despite all these worries I have in my head, Jesus reminded me that there are fam and friends whom He has placed all around me, to help me out and to learn from... I feel truly blessed in soooo many ways! I have family and friends who are always there to give me advices and supports, even suggest a few names.. (which I'm dreaaddddiinnggg to hear...). Truly, I've got a bunch of caring friends and fam all around us who are just excited as we are about this baby.
We get to move to my brother's house which is only 2 doors down from my mum in-law's house! Whom by the way.. is an excellent cook!! And my mum is coming down from Jkt to stay here for a month to help out. I have aunts and uncles and experienced mums all around me to help me out should I feel stuck. I am truly blessed!
So maybe I should just stop worrying and really enjoy the moment... After all, there's nothing gained out of worrying. I guess I will know when the time comes... but for now... Oooohhh!!! She's moving about!! Tickles!
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