It is FuNny...
It's funny how much you think you know someone so well, but ended up with a slap on your face. It's funny how in a blink of a moment, your bestfriend can turn into your biggest enemy who criticise your every move. It's funny how the people you trusted the most stabbed you in the back. It's funny how when you were friends, praises are only whispered, but how easily criticism screams out when disappointments and hatred reside. It's funny how you think so highly of someone but in return they look down on you. It's funny how people you love the most ended up disappoint you the most... It's funny how you apologized but people can't forgive you totally, but when they apologized, they expect us to forgive and forget.. It's funny how good intentions backfired...
If there's only 1 lesson I can learn from heartache, that is never to open my life for anyone to enter. Sometimes it is easier just to be ignorance and selfish. Why wasted energy to pleased people and be kind and be understanding and always takes the fault, whilst they don't even try to be introspective. Why try to be sensitive to other people's feeling if they are the ones who disappoint you over and over again? Why try to change if what you do is never enough in their eyes... Then people say, it is your fault, or, just pray for them, be patient, be strong, be positive, forgive them, or some encourage you to blame it on other things.. or simply start over!...... I say stuff it!!! Why start over? Once a person hates you, nothing you do is right, your ideas are bad, your intentions are bad and whatever you do is just a total waste of time... Am I exaggerating? I don't think so.. it happens now.. it happened in the past, it will happen again... You try to be a good usher and dress nicely, they say you overdressed, you want to cook for the church and give the best, they said you are boasting your cooking skill and raised the standard.. you are praising the Lord and show emotions, they say you are being a hypocrite. Why waste time fixing a broken heart and have it broken again? I say why bother!!!
But God says.. love them! He says.. Persevere, endure... He says He knows exactly how I felt and I don't always have to be strong... cos He'll be my strength.. He also says I'm not alone and I don't cry alone. He says dont fight the battle, for He will fight it for me. He says.. I don't need to look too far for a bestfriend, cos He's the bestest friend I can ever ask for. He says.. all these trials will happen again and may one be worst, but all I have to do is just to keep my eyes to Him and He will direct my path and vindicate my heart. He says that sometimes it takes my everything to give my life wholeheartedly to Him. He says surrender all and make Him the centre of my life... be confident in Him that I will see the goodness of The Lord.. and wait for Him, cos sometimes God answers our prayers one day at a time...He says, I can trust in Him and put my hopes in Him and will not be disappointed (and He smiled and said.. and I have proved that to you, haven't I, my child?)... Remember, He says.. just do to others what you want them do to you...
If there's only 1 lesson I can learn from heartache, that is never to open my life for anyone to enter. Sometimes it is easier just to be ignorance and selfish. Why wasted energy to pleased people and be kind and be understanding and always takes the fault, whilst they don't even try to be introspective. Why try to be sensitive to other people's feeling if they are the ones who disappoint you over and over again? Why try to change if what you do is never enough in their eyes... Then people say, it is your fault, or, just pray for them, be patient, be strong, be positive, forgive them, or some encourage you to blame it on other things.. or simply start over!...... I say stuff it!!! Why start over? Once a person hates you, nothing you do is right, your ideas are bad, your intentions are bad and whatever you do is just a total waste of time... Am I exaggerating? I don't think so.. it happens now.. it happened in the past, it will happen again... You try to be a good usher and dress nicely, they say you overdressed, you want to cook for the church and give the best, they said you are boasting your cooking skill and raised the standard.. you are praising the Lord and show emotions, they say you are being a hypocrite. Why waste time fixing a broken heart and have it broken again? I say why bother!!!
But God says.. love them! He says.. Persevere, endure... He says He knows exactly how I felt and I don't always have to be strong... cos He'll be my strength.. He also says I'm not alone and I don't cry alone. He says dont fight the battle, for He will fight it for me. He says.. I don't need to look too far for a bestfriend, cos He's the bestest friend I can ever ask for. He says.. all these trials will happen again and may one be worst, but all I have to do is just to keep my eyes to Him and He will direct my path and vindicate my heart. He says that sometimes it takes my everything to give my life wholeheartedly to Him. He says surrender all and make Him the centre of my life... be confident in Him that I will see the goodness of The Lord.. and wait for Him, cos sometimes God answers our prayers one day at a time...He says, I can trust in Him and put my hopes in Him and will not be disappointed (and He smiled and said.. and I have proved that to you, haven't I, my child?)... Remember, He says.. just do to others what you want them do to you...
and finally He says... it's funny how He loves me to bits and always will, although I disappoint Him most of the time...
"His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor his delight in the legs of man; the Lord delights in those who fear him, who put their hope in his unfailing love."
Psalm 147 : 10-11
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